“I have sinned terribly against God.” Timothy Trespass
To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everyone else, Jesus told this parable: “Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’ “But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’ “I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.” Luke 18:9-14
There is nothing pleasant or positive about being a “targeted individual”. When you first learn that you are being targeted and you understand the implications, it is like being diagnosed with a terminal disease. You process through all the stages of grief coming to terms with the criminal act being perpetrated against you. In addition to that you have to cope with the fact there there is no one who is willing to listen or do any thing to help, because the reality of the horror of gang-stalking is hidden from the minds of non targeted individuals. Most Americans feel way too safe here and live in a deluded state most of the time. Stuff like this isn’t supposed to happen here. In fact it isn’t supposed to happen at all. Human beings are supposed to be civil. They are supposed to respect other people’s rights. Lawyers are supposed to defend victims. Law Enforcement is supposed to protect us from criminals. Judges are supposed to be fair. Doctors have a sworn oath to ” do no harm”. Preachers are supposed to preach the truth and not deny it, and the church is supposed to take a stand against corruption. We have a constitution, the Bill of Rights and the law. There is something inside of all if us that cries for justice. We have an inborn sense that there is something called “right” and it’s opposite “wrong”. The “inalienable rights” spoken of in our Constitution alludes to the idea that there is an unwritten moral code that pre- existed any written code and in fact supersedes any written code. Those “inalienable rights” are based on the unchanging character of our very Holy God. When you become a gang-stalking victim you know that something has gone terribly
When I became aware that I was being targeted, I was researching. I wanted to understand and I did a lot of reading. I was shocked and appalled by what I learned. I am a Christian and there was a whole load of ramifications to this because of my faith. I was at first shocked, angry, terrified and confused. I of course asked myself and God what on earth I could have done that could be so terrible as to deserve such abuse. I never saw myself as a perfect shining example of Christianity. I did however give it everything I had. The entire focus of my life was being truly Christian. I was charitable, concerned about and prayed constantly for others. I was consistently involved in my church. There was in fact sins I needed to overcome. There was no excusing myself when I sinned. I consistently sought God’s forgiveness and I was repentant. There was nothing I was hiding from God, and there was no sin in my life that I was ignoring. There was however a war going on inside me that I could never understand. I hungered for God. I longed to be a part of his ministry. And I always felt like I was on the outside looking in. I felt shunned, ignored and excluded most of the time. Though I participated, volunteered and gave a tithe and offerings, it never changed. It wasn’t until I learned that I was being targeted that I began to understand why. There were a lot of things I that I found out when researching. The power structure in this nation is absolutely corrupted, and the church is a part of that power structure and also a part of the corruption. It goes deep, very deep, and it encompasses the political structure of your home town all the way to the office of the President of the United States. The church is snared in the web because of two things; a) The Christian faith emphasizes a godly respect for authority, and b) corrupted authority has capitalized on that and deliberately deceived the church. Ergo it has become possible for the church to become ensnared in cooperating with an ugly crime. The crime begins with isolating the victim, and targets in the church can very quickly become isolated and alone and even ostracized. One woman I spoke to was ostracized from her church because gang-stalkers told members of her congregation that she was gay. It wasn’t true, but it served to isolate her from anyone who might have, and should have, provided support. In fact I have spoken with very many targeted individuals and only one has ever said they found support and encouragement in the church.
So here I am with God. And I am standing here wondering if God is judging me for something. I know the scripture. I have been a believer since I was 15 years old, and I am 55. Of course I quickly became aware that my stalkers were full of malice and one of their goals was to destroy my faith. To that end they disrupted my relationship with my church and targeted my mind and emotions with directed energy weapons. Their attack was designed to make me believe that God had abandoned me and I was not his child anymore. They don’t believe that God exists. Problem is, he does and he is not silent. They lie. He speaks the truth. He says, “My love is not quenched.” They can’t contend with the Holy Spirit living inside of me. They can’t deceive him nor manipulate him into cooperating with their destructive game.
Well the question arises. If I am a child of God why am I suffering like this? Why am I being raped with microwave weapons? Why are my finances being attacked? Why is my workplace a battleground? Why did my family and friends not understand when I told them what was happening? Why does the church fail to respond? Is God disciplining me for something? Does God hate me or love me?
In the first place, when we sign up with God we are signing up for the cross. Our redeemer was crucified. All of his disciples bar one fled the cross when this happened. Jesus said to his disciples, “If any man would come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. -Matt. 16:24, NIV. In the Hebrew, the word for cross is literally translated torture stake. Torture is one of the greatest evils of fallen, sinful human beings. It turns the human personality turned upside down. It is the ultimate violation of the image of God stamped into our very being. However, Jesus does not call us to resist the cross, but to embrace it. The writer of Hebrews says, “For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.” -Hebrews 12:2 NIV. Indeed, consider him. And what does it mean, “scorning its shame”? People were crucified because they had allegedly committed a crime. However, as can be clearly seen in the scripture, the process of convicting the criminal was in fact corrupted. Jesus was probably not the only man convicted on trumped up charges. Nevertheless the convicted hung on the cross for all the world to see, having been like Jesus beaten and scourged. But here is the irony of the thing. Jesus was in fact sinless. Those that accused him, lied. Those who beat him were senselessly cruel and in fact were guilty of murder. Pilate knew Jesus was innocent but for political reasons allowed an innocent man to die. But, even when those being crucified are in fact guilty of some crime, they are all of them sentenced, beaten, and crucified by people who all deserve death ( Romans 3:23…for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.; Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord NIV). They are not any less guilty then those who are hanging on the cross. Jesus knows this. Perhaps that is what he despises. They who pass judgement on the crucified, are all worthy of death. The punisher is no less guilty then the punished. The punished endures the shame, while the punisher gets off scott free.
Another likely reason Jesus scorned the “shame” of the cross was that it was a symbol of brutal tyranny. The Jews of Judea lived in the shadow of the cross. They traveled on foot or by donkey and as they passed the roads the crosses of the crucified bodies of the convicted lined the roadway and adorned the tops of the hills. The gruesome macabre sight of the tortured bodies, some of them still alive and writhing in excruciating pain, were reminders to passers bye of the consequences of resisting Roman rule or breaking Roman law. The intent was to intimidate. It worked. In addition, the religious leaders of the day, instead of defending their people against the tyrannical abuse of the Roman government, curried the favor of the political elite by engaging in tyrannical rule of their own people. They had thus become corrupt. This was likely the reason Jesus denounced them publicly (Matt 23:13-38). Jesus went to the cross to say, “Look, you want to crucify someone, take me. Go ahead drive the spikes into my hands and the spear into my side. I will take the blame for all of you, and overcome it.” And he did. Indeed, consider him.
Several years ago, before I began my research quest, I had a dream. In my dream there was a war going on. I was grabbing people and dragging them into the church thinking we would find shelter there. I had them go down to the floor between wooden pews in defensive posture with their hands covering their heads. I was saying, ” It’s okay, we will be safe in here.” No sooner had those words left my mouth, then the entire side wall in the sanctuary was blown out. On the other side of that wall were Roman Soldiers on horseback, and they were dragging people out of the church and conscripting then into labor. I remembered the dream because it was so vivid, but I really did not understand the meaning of the dream. It wasn’t until years later when I learned that I was being targeted and I began digging for information that I understood the dream. For one of the things I learned was that the occult has heavily infiltrated the church. Former Grand Druid, John Todd, from the Illuminati Collins family, testified before a church congregation that the Illuminati, the inner core of the Freemason cult, spend billions of dollar yearly training their people to act like evangelical Christians so they can infiltrate and manipulate the church (John Todd, The Illuminati and Witchcraft, 1978 http://www.kt70.com.). Another Illuminati defector, Svali Walthrop whose interview with Greg Szymanski can be heard at a WordPress web page (http://firstname.lastname@example.org), also testified that she grew up in the church but her family was occult. She was one of their top mind control programmers. When she finally realized everything she had been taught was a lie, and she left the cult. However, as a cult member, she taught at a Christian school. In addition there are a load of pastors out there who are Freemasons. That doesn’t necessarily mean they are not Christian, but Freemasonry is designed to systematically destroy the faith of a believer. Many Christians who are members of the Freemason cult do not realize that the cult is Luciferian, not Christian. Both John Todd and Svali Walthrop converted to Christianity, and they have blown the whistle on cult activity in the church. Cathy O’Brien, who travels with her husband Mark Phillips speaking out against the occult infiltration of the US Government, also reveals that in her catholic School, a CIA occult operative disguised as a priest forced her to perform oral sex on him while she was in the confessional (Cathy O’Brien, Mark Phillips; Trance Formation of America (Frankston, Texas;Reality Marketing Inc., 1995, p 300). The priest/CIA operative was in charge of the now infamous MONARCH mind control operation. I recommend reading Cathy’s book with great caution. It is the true life story of a woman who grew up in a 3rd generation occult family. It is full of sexually explicit material. I only read the book in patches, there was material in that book I was not willing to read it was so graphic and contaminating.
What many in America don’t realize, especially in the church, is that we are seeing the prophesied resurgence of Roman tyranny on the political scene worldwide. This is evidenced in America by the blatant violation of human rights and complete disregard of the Constitution or of the rule of “we the people”. Thus we have American people gang-stalking their fellow Americans and torturing them with Directed Energy weapons while the US Government, the Department of Justice, local governments, the American BAR association, the American Medical and Psychiatric Associations and Law Enforcement turn a blind eye. While the cries of 3,000,000 Americans go unheard, and millions more worldwide, stalkers, with the consent of the US Government and governments worldwide are free to tag anyone they wish, torture them covertly with Directed energy weapons causing them to hear voices, endure terrible even suicidal depressions, migraine headaches, painful muscle cramps, even ritual rape, loss of sleep, vomiting and diarrhea etc. Targeted individuals also endure terrible isolation because stalkers trained in cover assault tactics have persuaded family, friends and other associates to cooperate with their scheme through deception, bribery or even blackmail leaving the targeted person without anyone to talk to, defend them or provide emotional support. They have literally been forsaken at the cross.
God sent his own son to the cross to bear our shame and endure death on our behalf so he could rescue us from an eternity in Hell. Though God disciplines the son or daughter he loves, he does not rape, torture or otherwise abuse them. However, we are living in a broken and corrupted world. God asks us sometimes to endure patiently for the sake of others who are also suffering as a witness to the cross. Suffering is also ordained by God to bring about change in us. I would be the first to say that I need to change. I want to be more like Jesus. God wants to being that about for me. I want a heart that is pure, free of malice, resentment or spiritual pride. I want no sexual impurity in me at all. I want no worldly desires to get in the way of my obedience to Christ. That does not mean to say that God approves of those who are torturing me or my fellow targeted individuals. He certainly does not. But God has something to say to them too. In suffering we are humbled and, before God, we wait patiently for deliverance. While those who torture us go on torturing with impunity, we are bearing witness of the truth of the Gospel. I am dismayed by those who insist that if we had been obedient to God, these things wouldn’t have happened to us. I was upset because some woman said something like that to my targeted brother, Timothy Trespass ( http://timothytrespas.wordpress.com/2014/04/01/881-timothytrespas-thank-the-lord-lost-and-suffering-honestly-struggling/). The implication is that if we targeted individuals were more like her, then we would not be suffering so.
In fact we do stumble and we do experience the consequences of our own actions. In my own confusion, I wondered if I had done something terrible enough for God to give up on me. As I was pondering over this, God brought to my mind King David. God called him a man after his own heart. King David we know was guilty of murder and adultery. He was severely disciplined by God, but God did not forsake him, and King David humbled himself under the Lord’s hand and endured patiently. He put his faith in God’s unfailing love and refused to budge. Job was robbed by a gang of ruthless criminals, and Job’s friends were convinced he must have done something terrible. Job probably struggled with the same “why?” questions that gang-stalking victims struggle with. Job wrestled because he believed in the goodness of God and could not imagine God being willing to devastate his life in such a way for anything he had done. He hadn’t in fact done anything worthy of such punishment. God himself finally had to step in to settle the question. Honestly, God’s answer to Job never made any sense to me. What did make sense to me was Job’s resolution, “I know that my redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand on the earth. And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh I will see God; I myself will see him with my own eyes—I, and not another. How my heart yearns within me!” (Job 19:25-27 NIV). Whether or not you think you have done something horrible for which God would discipline you, putting your faith in God’s unfailing love and refusing to budge will keep you from destructive despair which is where your stalkers will drive you if they can.
The truth is that the methodology and philosophy behind gang-stalking is amoral. The gang-stalking community operates with a worldview that does not allow for an understanding of a moral or ethical code. Though many gang-stalkers believe that they are executing some kind of justice, they that lead them have no sense of right or wrong. The leaders of these gangs are pretty expert at manipulating people to do their bidding. They are likely connected to the intelligence Community and they have an agenda with no regard for the Constitution, Bill of a Rights or common decency. Deception is the name of their game. The stalkers have a strong sense of justice which is manipulated by their leaders to persuade them to do the things they do. Though gang stalkers come from all walks of life, some seem to me to be people who have been underprivileged and have learned to resent people who have more. The operators who lead them capitalize on this and exploit it. I have heard a gang-stalker say, “I just think everybody should have the same amount.” One day I came home and found a book cover from a children’s book that had been obviously and deliberately dropped inside my fenced in patio. The book cover was new, not worn or torn. It was clean with not a speck of dirt on it. It hadn’t been blown there by wind. The title and the caption of the book was about a woman who was basically a rich snob. I wondered if the stalkers were told that’s what I was in order to gain their cooperation in targeting me. The leaders of these groups seem to have cultivated a socialist/communist mindset in their groups. It is also a concern among targeted individuals that gang stalkers work as reducing the target’s economic viability. Most targeted individuals are either unemployed or under employed. This echo’s historically the Bolshevik revolution. Gang-stalking is also used as a revenge service and frequently used to silence whistleblowers. Large cooperations hire them to get rid of someone they don’t want to pay the cost of firing. Gang-stalking victims are also possibly being punished for believing in a moral code and believing in God. It is possible that the stalker and/or their cult leaders believe that people who adhere to an ethical code are actually mentally unhealthy. Members of the Occult refer to people who believe in a right or wrong as “moralists”.
Satanists and Luciferians do not believe in love and they work at destroying a person’s ability to form and maintain loving relationships and this is a common element with satanic ritual abuse, trauma based mind control and gang-stalking. Therefore a targets relationships are also targeted. There is indication that the Freemason cult is at the root at the gang-stalkers mission. A stalker who confessed explained that the Supreme Council is the power behind gang-stalking. The Supreme council is the 33rd level of the Freemason cult (http://gangstalkingsurfers.wordpress.com/confessions-of-a-gang-stalker-aka-life-in-the-syndicate/). Another targeted individual links secret courts run by Freemasons to gang-stalking (If you Discover You Are a Victim’ ; Hearing Voices is Voice to Skull: Implant Victims, Gang-stalking Wiki<http://www.hearingvoices-is-voicetoskull.com/WhatNext.htm.) The US intelligence Community for years has funded research into trauma based mind control. This was the subject of the Senate investigations in the 70s (United States Senate, Ninety-Fourth Congress Hearings Before the Senate Select Committee to a Study Governmental Operations With Respect to Intelligence Activities [online] // – AARC Public Digital Library, 1976. – August 16, 2009. http://www.aarclibrary.org). Cults including the Freemason cult, satanists and the like are employing the fruits of that research to force believers to recant their faith, though it is all done covertly in secret and deceptively using Directed Energy technology, electronic surveillance and satellites. They are also using deception to encourage family members, friends etc to participate in the game of isolating the victim. Those that participate may actually believe they are doing something good, when in fact they are participating in the murder of a soul. If you are a target then I encourage you to put your faith in God's unfailing love and hang on. They can't deceive God and they can't manipulate him. As the scripture admonishes "Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; ( for he is faithful that promised;) Hebrews; 10:23 KJV)."
Timothy Trespass has a very humble and repentant spirit. He was weeping over the remark the woman made to him. He is truly broken hearted over his own sin, and he is the perfect example of the repentant sinner in the parable Jesus told in Luke 18 which I have quoted above. I share his grief. I too have sinned terribly against God. God be merciful to me, a sinner.